Out with the old

After almost 8 (mostly) loving years with my beloved Subaru GT, it was time to let it go. I've been in denial since my divorce that the cost/benefit just wasn't there. The engine went 5 days after I moved out in 05, weeks before the divorce was final. I wasn't in any shape emotionally to handle looking for a new vehicle, much less financial shape. House wasn't sold, yada yada yada. Most friends thought it foolish to dump that much $$ into an old car then, but it was the decision I made at the time, the body and interior were in great shape and I thought I could buy myself another 150 K miles.

Well, that was most likely a foolhardy thing to do in hindsight, but you do what you do at the time. A month ago when a local service tech with more insight than myself cautioned me that this engine had a limited life and I should just "fix and get rid of" I finally woke up.

As I told a friend yesterday speeding down the highway in my new 07 Outback, my old car looked fine from the outside, but boy did it have issues. Hey I said, just like you-know-who! What a great analogy. He seems to be a great guy from the outside, but don't pop that hood..... there are perils lurking under the surface that you don't realize til further diagnosis is done. And investing time and money may initially seem to fix the problems, but they always resurface again, no training that old dog.........

Yep, issues.... they're there. Who knew?

Strength

I had an awesome night at the rock gym tonight; best ever. I may have climbed a 5.10 which is crazy! And not just climbed it, I darn near flashed the thing. It's all so mental. I had a pretty good day, been negotiating a deal for a new car by myself, through email. So I was feeling pretty powerful about that.

And I'm finally letting go and giving up with the d***head I was involved with, who doesn't even have the god damned courtesy to call me back when I ask for it. I'm done with all of that. It's too bad, as anger can turn to bitterness and that could prevent a future friendship. His choice now. It's all his issues, his stuff, hard to keep remembering that, but it's true. So take that mental energy and see how it translates into climbing a wall.

I am Woman! Ha!

Oh, and I organized a project at our camp this weekend that is sorely needed, merely by putting out a few emails and finding out that fortuitously my cousin the engineer and project manager who has a very large toy box of heavy equipment is arriving from Atlanta this weekend. My brother is sure to spin this in some negative fashion, but tough poopy, it needs to be done and he's stressing about it, so I just accelerated the process. I'm no engineer but I can organize!!

So shaping up to be a good weekend with a big hike on Saturday for Dalydog and myself, bagging another 100 Highest hopefully, looks like snowshoes are still de rigeur.